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9 loved x be loved key me [03 May 2008|01:08pm] [ mood | scared ] [ music | Black Lips ] hello journal, its been awhile. i dont know why I'm writing in my journal now, but i feel i need to get some stuff off my chest. to those of you that dont know i moved out to 23rd and beardsley at crossroad apartments.(which probably wasn't the best idea but there is no going back now.) I'm am currently jobless, not going to school and leaching off my mom's money which makes me feel horrible. the worst part about it is that im not doing anything to change it, i just drown myself in alcohol and pot. my mom gave me a card to a quack she knows, but i havnt even looked at it. its like im subconsciecly trying to ruin my life till i have nothing at all.

be loved [12 Apr 2007|09:36am] what do you do when you forgot what you were doing in the first place?

1 loved x be loved [09 Apr 2007|12:51pm] so im bipolar? at least what the doctor told me. im not sure how im suppose to feel about this news.

1 loved x be loved [08 Apr 2007|04:36am] sometimes i wish i were religous so i could wake up in the morning and say god loves me and everything is going to be okay. but i dont and waking up has been getting harder and harder every day. Im really slipping now everything that was in my life a month ago is completely gone and i have no desire to get it back. im going to a doctor tomorrow, maybe she can pump me full of meds so i can get some other feeling than destress. Im not very fond of the idea of going to a doctor that is just going perscribe me meds that dont even work but it seems like if i dont do anything now it could be too late and i would be stuck in some crazy house, not like my room is any different, it seems like a prison now.

be loved [02 Apr 2007|12:26am] "God does not play dice"

be loved [21 Feb 2007|08:04pm] "supreme commander" = me

1 loved x be loved [05 Jan 2007|05:35pm] dirty greecy handjobs in truckstop restrooms

be loved [29 Oct 2006|06:50pm] im sorry

1 loved x be loved [16 Oct 2006|09:18pm] so i have decided to stop school for a year and move out, im hoping that i will be able to get enough money saved up by this summer so moving out wont be so hard im not really sure why im doing this, but it seems like a good idea

3 loved x be loved [10 Oct 2006|12:04am] </3blah

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